On being ... proud
By Ingrid Sapona
Some On being … columns feel like they write themselves.
This one isn’t one of those.
Today’s column has been a struggle mainly because I’ve been
debating about whether it’s too personal to write about. (I know that probably
sounds odd, as most columns are pretty personal.) Maybe I should just admit
that my struggle with today’s column is because it lays bare something I’ve
been judgmental about for a long time. (Funny, I thought – OK, hoped – that
admitting that would help the words tumble magically onto the page.
Unfortunately, that’s not the case.…)
Anyway – the topic for today’s column came to me when I was
at my sister R’s retirement party two weekends ago. R is retiring after 30+
years on the faculty of a U.S. university. The past 12 (or more?) years she’s
been associate dean for academic affairs in one of the University’s colleges.
OK – so let me get the embarrassing part out of the way.
Though I love and respect both my sisters immensely, I’ve always felt frustrated
by what I see as R’s lack of ambition. I know what you’re thinking: you don’t
get to be associate dean by accident. But honestly, in a way, she did. She
didn’t seek the job out. She was asked/invited to apply for it and then she got
it. So, you can see why I’ve always felt she kind of fell into it.
Don’t get me wrong. It’s not that I don’t think she deserved
the position. She did. She is incredibly competent and organized. In the latter
years of her tenure as associate dean, an increasing part of the work involved
resolving complaints against faculty and students. Such issues involved working
with diverse teams and crafting fair solutions – two of her particular
specialties. And yet, to my way of thinking, if she were ambitious, she’d have
proactively sought out such a position or tried to move on to a dean’s position
after a few years. I know, pretty judgmental of me…
At her retirement party, the faculty and staff of the college
presented her with a beautiful wood box filled with cards printed with
thoughtful comments and reflections her colleagues wrote about her. After the
party, I was reading the comments and I was moved by all the tributes. But one
comment in particular struck me like a bolt of lightning. The comment was to the
effect that R never approached things with an agenda. That rang true to me, as
I figured no ambition = no agenda.
But the comment didn’t end there. R’s colleague went on to
say that because R had no agenda, she always approached things with the best interests
of the students and faculty at heart and with the aim of doing what’s right.
That was the lightning bolt part. Indeed, it’s precisely because R didn’t have
an agenda and ambition for herself and her career, that she was always able to
steer toward being fair, finding consensus, and doing what she could to help
others.
That last part also made me realize something about R that
I’d never focused on before: of us three sisters, she has always been the most
people-focused. In other words, her ambition was about forging bonds with
others. Indeed, by going about her career in her way and on her own terms
(rather than based on her little sister’s terms), she not only fulfill her
desire to connect with others, she made a big difference in so many peoples’
lives. Who could ask for anything more from one’s career or life?
As it happens, last night I attended a women’s networking
event sponsored by a big law firm. The event and panel of speakers centered
around the launch of a book called The Collective Wisdom of High-Performing Women: Leadership Lessons from The Judy Project, edited by Colleen Moorehead. As you might imagine, the topic of women’s
relationship with ambition was front and centre in the discussion. The first
thing that stood out to me was the acknowledgement that even successful women
find talking about ambition uncomfortable. Boy did I need to hear that, given
my wrestling with whether to write about ambition today.
Ms. Moorehead, who hosted the event, kicked off the
discussion by explaining that one of the messages that came through from the
stories the women execs shared for the book is that women have redefined ambition.
Rather than defining ambition based on the model that’s centered on greed and
self-promotion, for women ambition tends to be broader and more inclusive.
Moorehead calls it a “collective ambition” that manifests itself in ambition for
one’s company or one’s team. Man-oh-man, that definition describes R’s version
of ambition to a tee.
Before leaving the event, I went up to Ms. Moorehead to tell
her how much I enjoyed the event and that I’m looking forward to reading the
book. I also told her about the guilt I felt about having misjudged my sister
as lacking ambition when, in fact, she’s always had an inclusive ambition.
Colleen smiled and nodded.
As I turned to leave, she said, “Just be proud of your
sister.” I turned back to look at her and assured her I am very proud of both
my sisters and lucky to have them as role models.
posted by Ingrid Sapona at 3:12 PM
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